...I began to develop a strong suspicion that there was, somewhere in space-time, another Adept of Brain Change,
or perhaps a School of Adepts, helping and guiding me. This is not at all unusual. In most human societies,
historically, the shamans have used similar brain-change drugs and soon became convinced they have "allies" [for instance Animal Guides, which are archetypical forces aswell] helping them.
Even a man with such a long and orthodox scientific career as Dr. John Lilly confesses that he thought he had super-human
"Guides" on some of his LSD voyages.
My teachers seemd to have a damned peculiar sense of humar at times. At one point I was almost totally convinced that my
teachers were a school of extraterrestrial adepts resident in the double-star system of Sirius. Strange coincidences - or
Jungian synchronicities - then accumulated around me, supporting this theory.
Later, a "psychic reader" told me I was "channeling" the spirit of an ancient Chinese sage. Coincidences
or "omens" supporting this model then obligingly appeared.
Then, another "psychic" told me I was channeling a medieval Irish bard. More synchronicities followed.
This sort of things always happens to people who mess around with Cabala (even if they don't use Acid)
[Or those who mess around with consciousness alteration and conscious evolution in general]
The late Dr. Israel Regardie, a psychotherapist and Cabalist, often distinguished two ways of
looking at this phenomenon, when it happens to you. The objective theory, as he called it, assumes an
external reality to these "entities." The subjective theory, on the other hand, assumes the "entities" exist
only in our brains, as anti-selves or Jungian archetypes or something of that sort. Dr. Regardie believed you
will get the best results when you are not committed to either theory but just open yourself to whatever
Somewhere along the way I got concerned with the direction all this was taking and decided to safeguard my
sanity by choosing the subjective theory (it's all in my head), and ruthlessly repressing any tendency
to speculate further about possible objective theories (there are super-human forces at work here...).
In terms of the neurological model then current, I explained everything as my over-developed left brain
learning to receive signals from my usually "silent" right brain. (We now know that this left brain/right
brain model does not quite explain everything, and Karl Pribram's hologram model of consciousness seems
Robert Anton Wilson: Cosmic Trigger 2: Down to Earth
Some other thoughts, maybe our unconscious is so powerful that we can let it guide us (another useful metaphor is maybe we are all
God like in the Hindu sense that if we want can lead our unconscious, or Higher self, or God, etc etc to guide us out of the maze we got ourselves into),
this comes in whatever forms we prefer consciously or have imprinted unconsciously and can change if we so 'intend' it. Intention and Archetypes are powerful stuff!
Maybe the subjective side of reality as we filter it with our nervous systems is much more powerful than we now think after
the one-sided objective materialistic age which has obviously not made us happy to our fullest potential.
Sometimes it seems help from 'outside' no matter how strange is required for our growth.
The moral of the story however is BELIEVE NOTHING; It is the highest form of intelligence =)
"Nothing is true, everything is permitted."
"In this book it is spoken of the Sephiroth, and the Paths, of Spirits and Conjurations ; of Gods, Spheres, Planes and many other things which may or may not exist.
It is immaterial whether they exist or not. By doing certain things certain results follow ; students are most earnestly warned against attributing objective reality
or philosophic validity to any of them."
Aleister Crowley - Liber O vel Manus et Sagittae, reprinted in Magick
"I am a deeply religious non-believer - This is a somewhat new kind of religion."